It hurts

Pain, tears and sadness, I am full of those. It will never get better, and I will always be hurt inside without any one feeling that. I will always cry without tears. I will always be hurt by other’s words and the way they look at me. I will always be suffering to say what I feel; I can’t use the sign language because I am not deaf although I wish I could. I start talking and suddenly my words get blocked, can’t quit talking and can’t continue. OH MY GOD PLEASE HELP ME CRY. I REALLY NEED IT. No people you don’t understand what I feel. It hurts. It hurts to say what you don’t mean. It hurts to suffer without others feeling it. It hurts to be made fool of. It hurts to not be able to introduce your self to others. It hurts to be afraid to ask a simple question. It hurts to be a good looking person but look ugly when you start stuttering. It hurts to feel better talking to your teddy bear than your friends or family. It hurts to be a stutterer.