Guilty

It was the most painful feeling I have ever had. It was like fire had started in my chest eating my soul. I felt ashamed and guilty that I have never felt before. Well, I am not an angel with no mistakes but it is when I hurt a person that deserves is totally different than hurting someone who did nothing but being kind and sweet to me. My past two days were awful, and with no colors and taste; my eyes would not see any beauty in any thing. My office plant had felt the mistake that I have done that it had wilted and lost its fresh look. “What is that person feeling now”, “And how much pain did I cause” is all what I have thought of. I couldn’t blame anyone for hurting me any more because I did it my self. I thought of deleting all of my previous posts, yet I didn’t; I saved then as drafts. I couldn’t delete the feelings that I had and never could express them by sayings. It would have been another mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life. I am sorry for being mean to you. And you were right when you said that I most have some feelings. I did a big mistake by hurting your feelings, and I deserve the pain that I have felt. I will never do it again to you or to any other person. You have always been kind and supportive. Thank you for forgiving me. This song is dedicated to Ra-1 and Bo ghazi. P.S. Thanks to all of those who sent emails to ask about the reason and encouraging me to come back.